These men they say
Just trust me
They touch their ears
Their chins
Frantic tics
Fingers that fly up
Denying the words
Or lending them strength?
Stroking coarse hair on their jaw
Or grooming their eyebrows with the pad of a thumb
Legs kick
Involuntarily
Toes bounce
Within brown loafers with leather tassels
I think are ugly
That flutter
That telltale rhythm
I'm not like the others
These men say.
As their brown eyes melt
Into a hundred pairs
A thousand
Blue and green and silver and earnest
As they preach this gospel
This anthem.
And we sit.
Unbelievers.
But we sit in silence.
We are hoping to be proved
That there is truth
That they are different
That they are not like the others
That we can give in
To these wild bright fantasies
Car rides in the summer
And lasagna dinners on wooden tables
Warm hands at night
This fantasy where words are what they mean
Where truth is truth.
And we gain wisdom from each broken love affair
Not bitterness.
Not coldness or hardness.
Not that edge to our eyes
Not that subtle clenching of the jaw
We disguise with a smile
We're prettier when we smile
So we smile tightly and we pluck
At split ends, at sweater fibers, at the napkin on the restaurant table.
While his fingers are floating to his face
A face we want to love
To trust
To believe
To be different
From every other face
That sat across from us and spilled lies
Or truth?
But it is our odyssey to
decipher
It is our journey
to learn.
And we sit
With fake smiles and tight stomachs
While they are outraged
Or hurt
Or sad
Or wounded or gentle or disgusted
That we don't drink these words we have heard a hundred, a thousand times,
without worry that we are being slowly poisoned.
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